Wild Child Want to Be

I woke up this morning feeling really grateful for forgiveness. I struggle with knowing what is right and doing what is right. I'm not talking about big things, I'm talking about the daily internal struggles I have. Do I turn left when I really want to turn right. I know left is the "right" way to go, however, I really want to know what would happen if I turned right. I think I missed out on the "what if" phase in my life. As a young person I was just to chicken to try anything. Plus, I live such a sheltered life. First by a mother, and then by a husband. They all want to shelter me from hurt and harm. I guess I do the same for them. I do the same for my son too. I wonder if my sheltering keeps him from developing into the man God means him to be. I think that about myself as well. What if I didn't have the watchful eye of a parent and a husband. What wild child would I become. I guess I am grateful to have people who care about my well being, however, I would really would like to know what would happen if I  turned right just once in my life.